I see you as an angel,
coming to save me from a terrible fate.
My dreams deceive me.
If I have sinned in anything in life,
I have sinned in not being happy
with what God gave me.
Healthy family, a happy home
(is any home happy?)
The capacity, if not the ability,
to hear your voice,
see your face,
touch your skin.
It’s not enough.
I want more.
I want the deception of my dreams.
I want to hear you
whisper in my ear as I dream.
I want to feel you
kiss my shoulder as I sleep.
I want to…
know what color your eyes really are.
All of this because of a dream.
And now, especially now, I want to believe.
“Fan Girl” was published on August 15, 2012 in the Spokane River Writers Anthology titled … And Then What Happened? Vol 1.
A copy of the anthology may be purchased here. Please consider purchasing a copy! The proceeds from this book will support NaNoWriMo and Young Writers programs in my area, which foster a life long love of the written word.